being apart

we've been apart for a good two months now running on three. i have been very hopeful that he could make it here for the holy week. however, circumstances militate against our desire to be together. i cannot, for the life of me remember how i had lasted 16 weeks and 2 days without seeing and being with him (way back in 2006).

i can honestly say it's okay..but somehow, a pinch of pain is hinting at me especially since he disclosed his plans of going home to laguna come wednesday this week :(

what am i to do? i am JUST a girlfriend. i have and lay no claim to him EXCEPT my love, which by the way, is not even quantifiable and is intangible as ever. i am but at the last rung of stairs in terms of priority, if not close to the last. oh well, just realities of a life i have chose to live. i'm not complaining, i'm just sad that such is the state of my life (love life, that is).

sige lang..babawi ka siguro sa April. sana naman. by then, we'll be celebrating our 4th anniversary as a couple, however out of this world and beyond normal our relationship is. as they say, our love shouldn't be defined by and confined to conventions.

i guess i am left with a week to finish up the coverage for corpo's second exam.

i just pray that one day, things will fall into place, that the distance will render us stronger and not corrupt us and rob us of that special bond we share. separation anxieties are a given but i hope to get through them with a breeze the next time.

i cannot wait to see you. thank God april is just two weeks away.