first semester grades

last semester, i had about six subjects. out of the six, the grades are out for only two subjects at the moment.

what is tormenting is that, the teachers take too long to give out grades and it is freaking me out and giving me nightmares (this, i think, is in line with the school's intention to prepare the students for the bar examinations in all aspects, including the agonizing 6-7-months waiting period). the part where i have nightmares is also essentially a part of the bar examinations.

i have started asking myself last year, "what have i gotten myself into?" i had entertained such thoughts again early on in the first semester. luckily, my brain is trained to think of the MONETARY COST that it took my parents to send me to law school, considering that my parents pay only a fraction of my law school tuition fees for my college education (imagine, a year in law school is equivalent to a full four-year course in UP.)

so there, i stopped tinkering with such thoughts and trained my focus on something else (di pa rin sa law school), i.e. work. when that failed to rekindle my passion for lawyering (i did have one when i first started out. i was inspired by my oblicon teacher when she said, lawyering is a more fulfilling job than being a doctor. after all, when one is a lawyer, he/she can save not only another's LIFE, but also another's LIBERTY and PROPERTY, whereas a doctor only has the capacity to save LIVES. she sounded more persuasive than i could hope to capture her here.), i started to gather my old notes and books. i leafed through some of them, especially the subjects i really liked. then i remember how i introduced myself during those first meetings. when asked why i wanted to be a lawyer, i readily answer, "because i am an advocate for justice." tch.

i long to come full circle before i graduate from law school. i hope that by the time i reach my senior year, i would be afire again with that same passion i used to profess back when i was a freshman.