yesterday, as i was getting ready to take my lunch break, i have received one of the most dreaded news. my boyfriend just got reassigned, from here in Mindanao all the way to Cavite in Luzon. just thinking about it makes me reel. the turn of the events really caught me off guard because we have come to plan so much on how and when we'd see each other considering that their ship is docked at davao's wharf.
well, now that his deployment to cavite is a reality, i might as well start thinking about when i would visit him there or when he would visit me here. more than that, i have come to accept that that is their job. the deployment was inevitable. i should know that because we've been talking about the possibility of him being transferred.
when i come to think of the tears i shed when i heard the news, i just have to stop and catch my breath. i asked him to come and see me, and he did. when we got to my apartment, we hugged each other tightly and we huddled together while we cried our eyes out. he was saying sorry he made me cry but we both know it was beyond his control. that is how it is.
so, instead of just crying the whole day and risk looking so puffy in the eyes, we both decided to look at brighter side of the matter. at least, we could go on the trip that we have been planning for since last year. more than this, we could get to prove to ourselves how much we have matured and how we can deal with this maturely. this is just difficult in the beginning, like when i had to come home here while he was in his last year in school. i think that these are but trials (some sort of spice to perk up our relationship; as if we need it!) and i know that the Big Man up there does not give tests which we cannot pass and He will never pass up on the chance to make us more dependent and submissive to Him. Lord, it is now in Your hands. if this is what you want, so be it.
i am sad. i cannot help it. the least i could do is bow my head in prayer, thank God for the blessings and be assured that all will be well.
i just hope that air fare would go so low. or that in time, there would be a much faster and cheaper way of travelling within the Philippine islands, like underwater subway =)
