the D-day that has been

last 10th of may, i took the special labor relations exam with the Father.

but before that, some events terrified me more than all those horror/gory flicks could. supposedly, there are three of us who will take that special exam. but early on, one classmate failed another subject thus, automatically disqualifying her to take the exam (we had a proviso with Father, that we could take the exam for so long as we only failed in labor relations subject for the entire academic year). unfortunately, a day before the scheduled exam, my other classmate failed a subject (haaay..). it was regrettable because he has been burning the midnight oil right after the review classes were concluded.

i stood the only remaining student qualified to take the exam. my horror did not proceed from the fact that i am taking that exam but because i had to take that exam ALONE. the picture i have conjured in my mind is one with only father and i in a classroom with 30 persons or more seating capacity and father would be there at the teacher's table and i would be in the middle of the classroom. whaaaaaaaa..

i chided my classmate for failing (i know, i do not have that right), but what can i do, i was that terrified.

with no other choice left but take the exam, i spent the remaining time, reviewing, praying, sleeping and eating (not necessarily in that order). the night before the exam was agonizing. i alternated between sleeping and praying.

thank goodness i woke up early on the day of the exam, that way i still have time to psyche myself for the d-day with father. i got to school early and reviewed some more and prayed and prayed and prayed until it was time to take the exam.

when i came in the law school office. ma'am G assigned the conference room to be the exam room. when father learned that i was the only one left to take the exam, he followed me in the exam room (and i was then shaking both from anxiety and from terror, i thought father would stay in the room the entire time i'd be taking the exam), i was so relieved when he only came in the room to turn the ACU on and thereafter left me in peace.

after an hour and 15 minutes, i finished the exam. i could not make a proper assessment of how the exam was nor how i fared because, according to a classmate who saw me sitting on the bench outside the office remarked at how "bangag" i was. when i told him i just took the lab rel exam, he just nodded in understanding.

hay.. i know that the Lord has been with me before, during and after i took the exam. thank God for that day and its implications on my status in school.

well, it's out of my hands now. all there is left to do is WAIT and the waiting is killing me.