so near yet so far

funny how i have experienced the manifestations of this entry's title in so many ways. but one most striking experience is now.

my boyfriend's ship just docked at the navy wharf in davao city. just imagine my excitement at the thought that, at last, i could get to have dinner with him every night or that he could fetch me from school after 9PM, or we could simply be together considering that we are already in the same city. what wishful thinking!

it seemed that the only time that we could be together is when they would be given the so-called "liberty," which to my mind is a misnomer. anyhow, the times when they are not allowed to go out of the navy compound and i so request his presence, he would obligely take life and see me, even if for a fleeting second.

haaayyy... this is their life. this is the nature of their job. how can i complain, when i knew all of these beforehand. how?

maybe it's just PMS. freaking hormonal changes also creates another "me" persona who is not susceptible to reason. oh well, this will pass (pasera). at least, now that we're in the same city, we could look at some of the city's landmarks and say to each other over the phone how we are looking at the same site at the same time. how is that for bonding?